The Palace

‘We live in a house made of thoughts’, I wrote down, thinking it profound.

Then I had an experience that made me discard all that nonsense.

I used to think that my thoughts were me. No more!

Thoughts of worry, fear, doubt, all of that nonsense, it’s just noise. Like the buzzing of bees or a dinner party I can’t wait to leave.

I retreat into a quiet room inside myself and shut the door.

I look around. Papa, Jesus, and Holy Spirit are there. Nothing else that I could see at that moment.

What else is there?

As I look, I discover a palace inside. The noisy room that I thought was inside me, is instead outside.

I begin to explore the palace. The chandeliers especially fascinate me—I’ve always liked chandeliers.

It reminds me of a dream I had once: a hidden warehouse I found behind a garbage dumpster. Racks and shelves full of ‘hidden treasure’ to be discovered.

Now I know that the garbage has been dealt with, and that this palace has been made from those materials.

No one else can go here. This is my mansion, my retreat, my paradise within.

How did I find this palace?


I learned to abide in Christ.

I learned about the mind of Christ, how he thinks.

The mind of Christ is a calm, sound, well-balanced mind full of peace and joy.

When thoughts buzz around my head, when bad dreams bother me, I remember: those thoughts, those memories, those are not me.

The real me rejoices inside. The Trinity rejoices in me. The peace is inside. I forget about the noise and abide in Christ.

I wish I could lead you to your own internal palace. Maybe I will spend the rest of my life helping lead others to theirs.

Whatever You Want To Do Is Right

In my job, I have often found myself caught up in endlessly revising emails, worrying about the smallest details. At times, it’s quite paralyzing.

One thing that has freed me in recent days is this phrase from the Holy Spirit:

“Whatever you want to do is right.”

That means that if I mess up a word or a punctuation mark in an email, God will make it right. Either people will not see the mistake, or they will understand despite the mistake, or something better will happen. But it doesn’t matter that I made the mistake, because God worked it out.

In the Holy Spirit, we have all of the direction that we need, all of the wisdom that we need, and all of the grace that we need to. So we can go about our lives in confidence instead of fear, because we know that there is grace for mistakes.

We also understand that God gives us holy desires as we walk and rest in him. So we only want to do the things that please God. That doesn’t mean that we don’t mess up, but it does mean that even if we make a mistake, God will make it right.

So if we walk in the Spirit (actively communing with the Holy Spirit at all times), we tend to make mistakes less often…

…but even if we do make mistakes, God makes it right anyway.

There is plenty of grace available at all times, in every situation.

One definition of grace is, ‘God’s supernatural empowerment for life, given to us out of his abundant love.’

Through the shed blood of Christ, we are given a new nature. Our new nature wants to do good. Therefore we have good and holy desires.

Perhaps there are other desires that war inside our minds at times (a subjective truth), but our true desires (an objective truth) are pure.

Therefore, if your true desires are holy, which they are, whatever you want to do is the right thing! So don’t be paralyzed; ask the Holy Spirit what to do and then take action, doing whatever seems right to you.

Then watch as God works both your good decisions and your bad decisions out for good.

The Nicene Creed: A ‘Declaration of Dependence’

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This morning in church I heard the Nicene Creed called the ‘Declaration of Dependence.’ I love that.

We believe in one God,
the Father, the Almighty,
maker of heaven and earth,
of all that is, seen and unseen.

We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ,
the only Son of God,
eternally begotten of the Father,
God from God, Light from Light,
true God from true God,
begotten, not made,
of one Being with the Father.
Through him all things were made.

For us and for our salvation
he came down from heaven:
by the power of the Holy Spirit
he became incarnate from the Virgin Mary,
and was made man.

For our sake he was crucified under Pontius Pilate;
he suffered death and was buried.
On the third day he rose again
in accordance with the Scriptures;
he ascended into heaven
and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

He will come again in glory to judge the living and the dead,
and his kingdom will have no end.

We believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life,
who proceeds from the Father and the Son.
With the Father and the Son he is worshiped and glorified.
He has spoken through the Prophets.
We believe in one holy catholic and apostolic Church.
We acknowledge one baptism for the forgiveness of sins.
We look for the resurrection of the dead,
and the life of the world to come.

In the United States we talk of independence; in the Kingdom we talk of dependence. This is as it should be.

Overactive Sin Consciousness

We are the ‘righteousness of God in Christ’, (1 Cor. 5:21) which means that by virtue of being permanently united with Christ, we have perfect, unchangeable, right standing with God always.

That doesn’t mean that our mind always agrees, though. While renewing the mind, sometimes we discover that automatic thoughts come to our mind, an instant reminder of something we messed up. It doesn’t even have to be a sin, per se. Maybe it was just a mistake–you accidentally looked at someone funny, or stumbled over your words. Perfectionism attacks and sometimes it sounds like a voice. If we haven’t renewed our minds to understand God’s grace and love, we can think that that ‘voice’ keeping us in line is God.

It’s not.

The voice of the Holy Spirit doesn’t bug you about everything. He corrects, but his correction doesn’t come out of a heart of perfectionism. You are indeed perfect, objectively, in Christ! Your subjective experience, however, might not match what you think to be perfection. But that’s OK–it means you’re human, and God is an expert at relating to humans. He’s been doing that for a long time. Your performance, whether good or poor, is no surprise to Holy Spirit.

We can have a righteousness consciousness–the Holy Spirit reminding us that yes, we are perfect, holy, as righteous as Christ, and deeply loved. Or we can have a sin consciousness, bugging us every other moment with every little mistake. There’s a transition period when you’re renewing your mind where both ‘voices’ compete for your attention. I challenge you to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit and to learn to overcome the ‘voice’ of the sin consciousness.

Learn to absorb God’s love in every area of your life. Did you do something that hurt someone? Apologize and make it right! I’m not saying sin doesn’t exist, but sometimes we can have such a hyperactive sin consciousness that we spend all day chasing our proverbial tails, apologizing to God for stuff we’ve apologized for. He keeps no record of wrongs! Learn to let go of your sin consciousness and embrace your God consciousness, and start today!

A few grace nuggets from May

I recently had a grace awakening when I started listening to the audiobook to Mystical Union by John Crowder. Here are a few posts from Facebook since then. I hope to have more to share with you on this blog in the near future.


Learning to remind myself, ‘no, God is still good’…despite atimes-massive disappointments that threaten to destroy my sometimes-fragile happiness. ‘It didn’t happen, it didn’t come through, it didn’t work out…but I am still in Christ, I am a new creation, I am still deeply loved and deeply treasured, and nothing will ever change that…so there.’

Worried about money much of the day.

Remembered that even with problems, I still live in the top 1% when compared to much of the world.

It changed my perspective a bit.

Grace means a lot less of,

‘I’m sorry for what I’ve done, Lord,’

and a lot more,

‘I’m so grateful for what You’ve done, Lord.’


When Does The Grace of God Kick In?


It already has.

The grace of God has already been given to us, just as every spiritual gift in the heavens (Ephesians 1) has. Titus 2:11 says that the grace of God has already appeared.

Why do we need to wait sometimes for grace to seemingly ‘kick in’?

You don’t.

Why? Because grace has already kicked in.

When something needs to change in your life, your desires change. You decide, sooner or later, to pray about it and ask God to make it happen.

Because of the grace of God that has already given you, when something needs to change, it will change, naturally. It starts with a realization: This needs to change. Then, sooner or later, a prayer: Lord, please make this change. Then, at some point, the change.

You might need to do something. Ask the Holy Spirit about that, and don’t be confused or in torment about it. God hasn’t given you a spirit of fear, so don’t be afraid.

Perhaps you need to go to a certain meeting or talk to a certain person and get them to pray for you. There’s no shame in that–the Bible tells us to respect body ministry and let the elders of the church pray for you (James 5:14).

Perhaps you need to change a certain habit, such as when one needs to lose weight. (author silently raises his hand). Maybe your eating habits need to change, and you need grace for that.

Perhaps you need to do nothing at all, except continue to pray and wait. While you’re waiting, you might meditate on Bible verses about grace (I mentioned a couple above, but there are plenty more). Pray in tongues if you know how, because that strengthens your spirit (1 Corinthians 14:4).

Above all, know that grace is already at work within you. Trust that God’s grace is enough for you (2 Corinthians 12:9) and that you will get through.