What If I Wasn’t Afraid?

sammie-vasquez-549428-unsplashThis week has really had the theme of ‘perfect love casts out fear’, as my recent post mentioned. I could be a case study with regards to how God’s love ‘turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror’ (1 John 4:18 AMPC), as, for some reason, fear has been a dominating factor in my life for years and years.

Though a lot of my Big Fears have been taken care of through experience with God being faithful (fears such as dying early, or Really Bad Things happening to my kids), a lot of little niggling fears have plagued my life and stolen my joy for far too long.

Most often, the fear of man has been the ‘joy thief’. What will this person say? What did his/her facial expression mean? What does my boss think of me? Am I in danger of getting fired? Am I in trouble? The list goes on and on. You name a fear, I’ve probably dealt with it in one form or another.

Recently, Holy Spirit has been dealing with me to deal with ‘the little foxes that ruin the vineyards’ (SoS 2:15). In this case, the ‘little fears’ are what is messing up the vineyard of my heart–the Secret Place where I meet with God inside. These ‘little foxes’ distract me from the presence of God and cause me to focus on things that will never happen, or really don’t matter.

So what can be done about the little fears–not the Big Fears that keep you awake at night, but the little ones that pester you like sand gnats on the beach?

Yesterday, the question came to me,

“What if I wasn’t afraid of that?”

This clicked in my spirit.

I asked the question over and over. Someone looked at me funny: “What if I wasn’t afraid of them?” Passing people in the hall: “What if I wasn’t afraid of them?” Someone says ‘hi’ on the elevator: “What if I wasn’t afraid of them?”

And on it went.

And you know what? It’s helping. I’m realizing that I don’t have to be afraid of anything or anyone. That’s important. It helps me become more bold and less timid, something that looks great at work or anywhere.

Fearless ambassadors of Christ–that’s what the world needs.

Perfect Love Drives Out Fear

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There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

1 John 4:18. The more we tangibly experience God’s love, the less we fear. I’ll handle this scripture both in context and out of context, because this principle is true both ways.

First, in context: ‘Fear has to do with punishment.’ If we expect the other shoe to drop, if we expect God to harshly discipline us, if we expect bad things from a good Father, then we have reason to fear. Why? Because we don’t believe that God is really good. We expect him to punish us harshly (not gently) if we do wrong, or even cast us into hell if we really, really screw up. This is not the God expressed in human flesh in Christ. Everything Christ did while walking the earth was bathed in grace and love, even his corrective discipline.

Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.

Romans 5:1. We have peace with God. We are not at war with him, we are not at odds with him, we do not have to be afraid of God. We have peace with him ‘because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.’ What has Jesus done? He has torn the veil apart between man and God forever. He has permanently united us with him. We have been co-crucified, co-buried, co-raised, and co-seated in Christ. We are new (kainos, new in kind and quality) creations in Him.

We have no need to fear God. Therefore we can experience his love deeply, tangibly.

The second application of this verse is out of context, as a general principle, but it works out in a similar fashion. ‘Perfect love casts out fear.’ If we understand, really understand, God’s love, fear dissipates over time.  We watch as God supernaturally works circumstances out. We watch him rescue us from ourselves and from other people. We watch as the bad is worked out for good. And we learn to believe. We learn to trust. We learn that he really does love us, love that is complete and everlasting. And fear, over time, just goes away. ‘God worked that out, so this will work out too.’ And our faith (our simple trust) becomes stronger.

Let God’s perfect love drive out your fear today.

Jesus, Inside

I sat in the prayer room for a long time, back in the Dark Days, back in the Dry Times before I understood grace.

This song, Jesus, You’re Beautiful, by Jon Thurlow, was one of the songs that I remember from those times. Recently, some friends of mine sang it during a worship session and ‘redeemed’ the song in my mind.

I know that your eyes are like flames of fire
I know that your head is white as wool
I know that your voice, it sounds like waters
Jesus, you’re beautiful

On the way home, I reflected upon the Dark Days, where I would sing songs like this and attempt to think heavenly thoughts. We were to develop ‘holy imaginations’, reflecting on passages that described God, such as in Ezekiel, Daniel, and Revelation. I don’t know if it ever worked for me. I tended to get distracted easily back then.

In the middle of my remembering, I had a conversation with Jesus that went something like this:

You know, I’m honored when you talk about my physical appearance, but I much prefer talking about me in you.

I felt the presence of God inside, a strong sense of Jesus-being-within.

I don’t mind people talking about what I look like, but it distracts from the experience of having me stand up inside them, ‘Christ in you, the hope of glory.’ It’s easy to become obsessed with seeing me in my physical form, but I want people to realize that I am right there, inside, through the Holy Spirit.

The focus changed. I still sang the song to myself, but it was no longer about a Person, distant and far away, on a Throne somewhere else in the cosmos.

It was about Christ in me, the hope of glory.

The Real Christianity

Intellectual Christianity was tried and failed. The world was not changed and instead became bitter and hardened at these moral people with words but no power.

Mystic Christianity is the only real Christianity. True experience with God cannot be faked or replicated. All the world is looking for the sons of God. The sons of God are the mystics who have encountered God.

These Are Always The Best of Times

It’s easy to criticize what the Church universal, the Bride of Christ, is not doing.

How about what she is doing?

The true Gospel is coming to light worldwide, and millions are getting their lives turned around. Bodies and minds and hearts are getting healed. The Kingdom is growing daily.

These are the best of times.

These are always the best of times.

Ignore the nightly news and look deeper. Good things are happening every day, for those who have eyes to see and ears to hear.

Here, Now

The Good News is far better than, ‘intellectually assent to a certain list of ideas and you will go to a wonderful place when your body dies’.

It’s the news that heaven is here…on Earth, right now.

It’s the news that you are redeemed, sanctified, glorified, made holy…right now.

You don’t have to wait until you die to experience God, to experience Heaven. You can have that experience right here, right now, right where you’re sitting or standing or walking or running.

The Nicene Creed: A ‘Declaration of Dependence’

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This morning in church I heard the Nicene Creed called the ‘Declaration of Dependence.’ I love that.

We believe in one God,
the Father, the Almighty,
maker of heaven and earth,
of all that is, seen and unseen.

We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ,
the only Son of God,
eternally begotten of the Father,
God from God, Light from Light,
true God from true God,
begotten, not made,
of one Being with the Father.
Through him all things were made.

For us and for our salvation
he came down from heaven:
by the power of the Holy Spirit
he became incarnate from the Virgin Mary,
and was made man.

For our sake he was crucified under Pontius Pilate;
he suffered death and was buried.
On the third day he rose again
in accordance with the Scriptures;
he ascended into heaven
and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

He will come again in glory to judge the living and the dead,
and his kingdom will have no end.

We believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life,
who proceeds from the Father and the Son.
With the Father and the Son he is worshiped and glorified.
He has spoken through the Prophets.
We believe in one holy catholic and apostolic Church.
We acknowledge one baptism for the forgiveness of sins.
We look for the resurrection of the dead,
and the life of the world to come.

In the United States we talk of independence; in the Kingdom we talk of dependence. This is as it should be.

Overactive Sin Consciousness

We are the ‘righteousness of God in Christ’, (1 Cor. 5:21) which means that by virtue of being permanently united with Christ, we have perfect, unchangeable, right standing with God always.

That doesn’t mean that our mind always agrees, though. While renewing the mind, sometimes we discover that automatic thoughts come to our mind, an instant reminder of something we messed up. It doesn’t even have to be a sin, per se. Maybe it was just a mistake–you accidentally looked at someone funny, or stumbled over your words. Perfectionism attacks and sometimes it sounds like a voice. If we haven’t renewed our minds to understand God’s grace and love, we can think that that ‘voice’ keeping us in line is God.

It’s not.

The voice of the Holy Spirit doesn’t bug you about everything. He corrects, but his correction doesn’t come out of a heart of perfectionism. You are indeed perfect, objectively, in Christ! Your subjective experience, however, might not match what you think to be perfection. But that’s OK–it means you’re human, and God is an expert at relating to humans. He’s been doing that for a long time. Your performance, whether good or poor, is no surprise to Holy Spirit.

We can have a righteousness consciousness–the Holy Spirit reminding us that yes, we are perfect, holy, as righteous as Christ, and deeply loved. Or we can have a sin consciousness, bugging us every other moment with every little mistake. There’s a transition period when you’re renewing your mind where both ‘voices’ compete for your attention. I challenge you to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit and to learn to overcome the ‘voice’ of the sin consciousness.

Learn to absorb God’s love in every area of your life. Did you do something that hurt someone? Apologize and make it right! I’m not saying sin doesn’t exist, but sometimes we can have such a hyperactive sin consciousness that we spend all day chasing our proverbial tails, apologizing to God for stuff we’ve apologized for. He keeps no record of wrongs! Learn to let go of your sin consciousness and embrace your God consciousness, and start today!

A few grace nuggets from May

I recently had a grace awakening when I started listening to the audiobook to Mystical Union by John Crowder. Here are a few posts from Facebook since then. I hope to have more to share with you on this blog in the near future.


Learning to remind myself, ‘no, God is still good’…despite atimes-massive disappointments that threaten to destroy my sometimes-fragile happiness. ‘It didn’t happen, it didn’t come through, it didn’t work out…but I am still in Christ, I am a new creation, I am still deeply loved and deeply treasured, and nothing will ever change that…so there.’

Worried about money much of the day.

Remembered that even with problems, I still live in the top 1% when compared to much of the world.

It changed my perspective a bit.

Grace means a lot less of,

‘I’m sorry for what I’ve done, Lord,’

and a lot more,

‘I’m so grateful for what You’ve done, Lord.’


When Does The Grace of God Kick In?


It already has.

The grace of God has already been given to us, just as every spiritual gift in the heavens (Ephesians 1) has. Titus 2:11 says that the grace of God has already appeared.

Why do we need to wait sometimes for grace to seemingly ‘kick in’?

You don’t.

Why? Because grace has already kicked in.

When something needs to change in your life, your desires change. You decide, sooner or later, to pray about it and ask God to make it happen.

Because of the grace of God that has already given you, when something needs to change, it will change, naturally. It starts with a realization: This needs to change. Then, sooner or later, a prayer: Lord, please make this change. Then, at some point, the change.

You might need to do something. Ask the Holy Spirit about that, and don’t be confused or in torment about it. God hasn’t given you a spirit of fear, so don’t be afraid.

Perhaps you need to go to a certain meeting or talk to a certain person and get them to pray for you. There’s no shame in that–the Bible tells us to respect body ministry and let the elders of the church pray for you (James 5:14).

Perhaps you need to change a certain habit, such as when one needs to lose weight. (author silently raises his hand). Maybe your eating habits need to change, and you need grace for that.

Perhaps you need to do nothing at all, except continue to pray and wait. While you’re waiting, you might meditate on Bible verses about grace (I mentioned a couple above, but there are plenty more). Pray in tongues if you know how, because that strengthens your spirit (1 Corinthians 14:4).

Above all, know that grace is already at work within you. Trust that God’s grace is enough for you (2 Corinthians 12:9) and that you will get through.