When Something Just Changes, And You Can’t Explain Why

6108b580This morning something weird happened. It will sound extremely normal, probably boring, to anyone who has never suffered with mental health issues, such as anxiety, depression, shame, fear, and guilt. But my three ‘things’ in life are Jesus, politics, and mental health, as you’ll note from the web site, so if you’re interested, you’re going to get quite a bit of all of this.

What happened this morning? I noticed that an artist I liked had a new album on Spotify. This artist’s music got me through some very miserable times, where I was so locked up in misery that I couldn’t put words to it. It was just an unusually strong season of mental and emotional pain.

Over the past few years, I’ve become a bit of an amateur psychologist as I’ve studied myself, trying to figure out all the things that are wrong with me. It’s been my second full-time job. So I tried a little experiment. I knew as soon as I turned on this artist’s music, that I would hear her voice and all of the shame and misery would come back. It would trigger all of that nonsense and I would be miserable. Maybe it’s a little sadistic of me, but I just knew that it would happen, and I did it anyway.

And then nothing happened.

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Welcome to the relaunch! Let’s get started.

The Apollo 14 Saturn V Space Vehicle, carrying Astronauts Alan B. Shepard, Jr., Stuart A. Roosa, and Edgar D. Mitchell, lifted off at 4:03 p.m. EST on January 31, 1971, from the Kennedy Space Center Launch Complex 39A, to begin the fourth manned lunar landing missionIt’s 2016, and an election season is on.

Legalistic religion and dualistic thought still reign supreme, and a real revelation of Jesus Christ is not as widespread as it will be.

Mental health has been recognized as a huge issue, especially following the range of shootings.

And here I am, sticking my nose into all of it.

Welcome to the relaunch of my blog. For long-time readers, welcome back. For the many new readers to come, welcome to you! I hope you will enjoy what you read here, and that it will challenge you to act on your faith, speak up, or quiet down, depending on how the Holy Spirit leads you.

This will be a fun journey, and I look forward to it.

  • Stephen