One of the difficult things about this life is when you reach the frustration point: I am not who I need to be; I can’t think the way I need to; I need clarification; what is wrong with me?
Well, nothing is wrong with you. It’s just not clear yet.
We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them. – Albert Einstein
In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. – Philippians 1:4-6
The problem I run into so many times is that I cannot think clearly enough. Either I am too emotionally attached to the issue at hand to make a clear decision, or no one path seems better than the other.
That’s when I need clarity. And there’s nothing wrong with seeking God in prayer with that–as a matter of fact, that should be our first step, seeking our Almighty and ever-loving God for wisdom.
If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. – James 1:5
I have learned over the years that if I am stuck in negative thinking, that I am not thinking right. Sometimes there’s a quick fix for that: take a nap, get some exercise, grab a bite to eat. Sometimes the problem is a little deeper and I might have to have a talk with myself, like David:
Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation. – Psalm 42:5
“C’mon, cheer up, snap out of it!” There’s no shame in talking to yourself, maybe even bossing yourself around a little bit. We have far more control over our internal thought processes and emotional state than we think we do.
We all proceed ‘from glory to glory’ (2 Corinthians 3:18) and need clarification along the way. I myself have been asking God for clarity on my life’s work, what career path I’m to take next, and through prayer and counseling have come up with a ‘game plan’ (going back to college and getting a teaching degree, which has been my heart’s desire for decades).
But it’s taken many years to arrive at this point where I can think clearly about the future. rather than wading daily through a fog of misery and confusion. I didn’t start getting treatment for my mental illness issues (which I didn’t know that I had) until I had a full nervous breakdown several years back. It’s been a long, difficult road since then. But I’m glad to be able to say that I’ve reached a little more clarity. And every week things become a little more clear, through prayer, wise counsel, life experiences, and reading books. But I’m not ‘all the way there’ yet. And neither are you. But that’s OK.
Progressive clarification, that’s what we receive from God. Enough light for the path ahead. Eventually enough light will come so we can see farther. But for right now, we have a little light, and that’s enough.